When will the day return that I get to go to the bathroom without onlookers? Why is it my children seem the most interested in me or have the biggest needs of the whole day- while I am in the restroom?
When will the day arrive that I eat a hot meal?
Will there come a time that snot is gross?
The other day I was at fellowship and I was sitting there listening to a good teaching but for some odd reason I remembered- I forgot to put on ANY makeup!
Will I ever go to the grocery store again and remember ALL of the items on my list? The list that becomes ‘the map’, the snack or just in general- lost.
Is there a day when I say ‘yes’ more than no, please don’t do that, or can you come here (now), please?!?
Is there a day when I won’t feel this amazing affection for my kids?
Will there come a time when this depth of love for them dissipates?
I seem to learn so much from my children, will that stop at some point?
Will I ever find the balance between kid time and mommy time?
Will breathing become harder when they are not in sight, when they are older?
I will always be thankful that my children showed me how deep, how intense and how amazing someone’s true love for another can be!
I don’t care if I ever have a free ‘potty’ time of my own again- I don’t care if I don’t get out enough (without my kids), the time will come when I am sure I wish they were here; I don’t mind having some cold meals- at least I am able to give! They could care less if I am wearing make-up, my waist size or if I match, (for now anyway). I will find the balance, just maybe not today- I don’t think I’ll ever feel less than I do for my kids but only more and deeper as their personalities and characters blossom into wonderful contributors.
I will continue to direct their steps, pray for them and to impart to them all I know and all I learn from God’s Word so they can have a shot at enjoying life- in ways I struggled. Kids don’t have to learn the hard way if they learn the right way, first.
I am thankful that through of life’s challenges there are things that inspire us, things that excite us and things that give us ‘purpose’. Outside of God’s Word, my children are that for me- for that I am so thankful!
(Will I ever be a good enough writer to express my heart for my children (and husband) without a bunch of grammatical errors? I hesitate from writing because it’s generally a train wreck, but I gave it a shot today!)
Happy Friday All!
